It’s a big bad world

Before the burning crusade, I was a fully fledged, full time, got no life, raider! I would consistently spend 40+ hours a week playing wow, and a large proportion of that time in MC, BWL, AQ, ZG, and the remaining few hours grinding to pay my repair bill.

Interstingly, whilst I think I’ll rant about it later I just want to mention it in passing. The amount of people that have never heard of Molton Core and Black Wing Layer is astonishing to me, I bump into more people that haven’t heard of it than have. I can deduce from this that over 50% of the current wow population (on my server at least) are completely new to wow since TBC!

Anyway, back to the topic in hand.

Since TBC was released I have pretty much solo’d my way to 70 (on two toons). On Cav I still don’t even have my kara key, and shes supposed to be my main. In total I think ive run maybe three of the BC instances, and even then I was probably being carried a little bit. This brings me onto my dilemma……

My guild is currently recruiting for some new raiding healers, which is really enticing to me as I really want to see the content. My girlfriend is being supportive of this idea (in theory) at the moment, although I don’t want WoW to cause any unnecessary problems (past experience tells me it will). So all that said, whats stopping me? Ive decided it’s a fear of failure.

See I used to be an MT (pre-tbc), and I always though I was ok at it. Of course I haven’t done any group (let alone raid) healing since that time, and im a little worried that a) I wont be able to hold my own, and b) If I am crap the illusion that I used to be pretty good will disappear.

I think im going to try and arrange to heal some heroics this week/weekend and see how I get on, if its positive then maybe I’ll sign up for the next kara run….

I think I need to talk to Lois about this a bit more though, I can see myself being sucked back into this more and more each day (hour).